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Sleepy morning sex right at sunrise is the best way to wake up.


On the cheese board this Easter Sunday were a couple of my own cheeses, the “Finback Wheel”, and its bloomy rind sibling. These are from the batch I made during my time at Woodock Farm. Made with pasteurized Jersey cow’s milk from Jersey Girls Dairy, the wheel on the right was washed with Finback Brewery's Smoked Porter and aged for about 6 weeks. The wheel on the left is the same exact cheese, but was left unwashed, which allowed the white Penicillium Candidum molds to take over, and also produced a very different final product, of course, more of a classic mild, buttery, tangy bloomy rind cheese. The beer-washed wheels, on the other hand, while the beer influence was subtle, were definitely more pungent, with a yeasty, fruity overtone and a little bit more complex flavor. The paste was also moister and creamier, evenly ripened, not oozing but with a nice bulge to it as it warmed. 

For the next time I do this, I’d like to get the beer to assert itself more, perhaps with a beer brining in the beginning, as these were dry-salted and then washed with beer later in the aging. 

She is not “my girl.”

She belongs to herself, and to all of the world. And I am blessed, for with all her freedom, she still comes back to me, moment-to-moment, day-by-day, and night-by-night.

How much more blessed can I be?

Avraham Chaim, Thoughts after The Alchemist

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Wanna make a monster? Take the parts of yourself that make you uncomfortable - your weaknesses, bad thoughts, vanities, and hungers - and pretend they’re across the room. It’s too ugly to be human. It’s too ugly to be you. Children are afraid of the dark because they have nothing real to work with. Adults are afraid of themselves.

Black Telephone (Richard Siken)

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Did you guys know that carrots are actually bad for rabbits? They’re too high in sugar and can lead to tooth decay and other serious health defects in our furry little friends. So why did Bugs Bunny eat them all the time? Because of Clark Gable, that’s why.

The reference might not seem so obvious to us know, but when Bugs first appeared in theaters over seventy years ago the audience immediately understood that when Bugs ate a carrot and talked with his mouth full; he was parodying Clark Cable in Frank Capra’s It Happened One Night (1934).

It turns out that, according to Friz Freleng’s unpublished memoirs, that It Happened One Night was one the animators favorite films and that at least three characteristics of Bugs Bunny are based on the film. Besides Clark Gable inspiring Bugs’ carrot addiction; his personality was based on Oscar Shapely, a minor character in the film who consistently referred to Gable as Doc. Not only that, the famous Rabbit was named after Bugs Dooley; an imaginary character mentioned in the film.

Sure, It Happened One Night is considered to be one the best romantic comedies of all time, and it might have been directed by Frank Capra, who’s arguably the greatest American film director ever; but this might be one of those rare cases where the parody has outlived the original reference.

Some what related: When Bugs Bunny referred to Elmer Fudd as “Nimrod” he was ironically referencing Nimrod from the book of Genesis who was a mighty hunter. Children growing up with Bugs Bunny (self included) not familiar with the story, grew up thinking that “Nimrod” was an insult of stupidity or incompetence.

Another instance where the parody has outlived the original reference.

I remember as a kid watching Felix the cat they were calling the little sciencey dude Poindexter and I just thought they were insulting him, then when I realized it was his actual name I wondered if maybe the character was old enough to be the reason people associate the word “Poindexter” with derisive slang for geekiness.

(and he totally is)

Sometimes it’s striking how perfectly parents pick a kid’s name before really knowing them.

6 years ago, I named my 3rd child Elijah.
He hates dinner, rarely eats it. And it hit me, every night I put food on the table at his spot. The spot stays empty.


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Well this is pretty secluded!

Ancient proverb which loosely translated means “let’s have sex here”. (via polystumbles)




It’s important to talk about how vaccines don’t cause autism, but can we please also talk about how much people must hate autism if they’d rather expose their child to polio, measles and chickenpox than autism?

Mumps and Rubella as well as whooping…

Can we also talk about how vaccine reactions DO exist? My oldest reacted 3x to his shots (yes real reactions-I took him to ER for last 2). But the paperwork for reporting a reaction was so complex that even with a college degree, I found it so complicated I gave up. What’s more, I was told by his Dr. (you know, the dude who has to sign the forms) that I couldn’t report a reaction to the Heb B vax because “reactions to that vaccine don’t exist.”
Sounds like shitty science to me. I can prove stars don’t exist too if I stop collecting evidence of them!
I’m not anti-vax, ftr, but I do strongly, STRONGLY support good science. And I don’t trust either side on this debate. Vitriol never makes for good science or healthy people.

A person susceptible to “wanderlust” is not so much addicted to movement as committed to transformation.

Pico Iyer (via iamcharliesangel)

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I’ve never been female. But I have been black my whole life. I can perhaps offer some insight from that perspective. There are many similar social issues related to access to equal opportunity that we find in the black community, as well as the community of women in a white male dominate society…

When I look at — throughout my life — I’ve known that I wanted to do astrophysics since I was 9 years old…I got to see how the world around me reacted to my expressions of these ambitions. All I can say is, the fact that I wanted to be a scientist, an astrophysicist was hands down the path of most resistance through the forces of society.

Anytime I expressed this interest, teachers would say, ‘Oh, don’t you wanna be an athlete?’ I want to become someone that was outside of the paradigm of expectations of the people in power. Fortunately, my depth of interest of the universe was so deep and so fuel enriched that everyone of these curve balls that I was thrown, and fences built in front of me, and hills that I had to climb, I just reach for more fuel, and I just kept going.

Now, here I am, one of the most visible scientists in the land, and I wanna look behind me and say, ‘Where are the others who might have been this,’ and they’re not there! …I happened to survive and others did not simply because of forces of society that prevented it at every turn. At every turn.

…My life experience tells me that when you don’t find blacks, when you don’t find women in the sciences, I know that these forces are real, and I had to survive them in order to get where I am today.

So before we start talking about genetic differences, you gotta come up with a system where there’s equal opportunity, then we can have that conversation.

Neil DeGrasse Tyson in response to a question posed by Lawrence Summers, former Treasury Security and Harvard University President

"What’s up with chicks and science?"

"Are there genetic differences between men and women? Explain why more men are in science."

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